You dont know how disappointed I am in you nowdays.
Take the wed for example,
tue night: I asked u out to study, u just said u have something on with a church friend.
okay. I understand.
Wed came and aft lesson:
I asked where are u going and what bus are u taking.
Still you answered oh i am going bishan first.
Thinking that i shall accompany you take the bus to bishan at the same time i could grab my lunch & talk to you to know how you have been.
When we are about to reach then you tell me u are studying at bishan cc with ya friend and ask me if i would want to join.
My heart came crashing. Yes. At least u asked better than you never.
BUT THE THING IS, WHY YOU TOOK SO LONG JUST TO TELL ME YOU ARE ACTUALLY STUDYING WITH A FRIEND?
Is it really something so hideous? so secretive? I dont understand.
My grades are fucking more CMI than yours.
Why are you doing this to me?
the main point is i still treat you like my bestfriend.
Now i feel like a fool.
The stupidest person at the moment.
Things have changed. I no longer hope you will be there for me.
I dont want to make things big. I dont want to add on to ya burden.
Think of what i have done when you are down.
Did i not do anything? Did i just let u go down?
Did i get angry with u being late all the time? skipping lesson wen u dont feel like it and i have to attend it all on my own? NO.
Because i try to understand you, try to treat you like my bestfriend even though you are oblivious to my feelings.
Is it fair for u to treat me lyktt?
Maybe i am not doing enough for you.
I think i am not even needed now.
If only wordpress could reply me, then i will know what i should do. )’:
